and this the 100th post.

at last after blogging since 1 year plus ago.

When initially i tt blogging was a waste of time

and there would be lack of privacy

but then is a place where i can write wadever i feel

no matter sad or happy.



and yeah feel happy for you 2 =)

sometimes

no matter wad,

it would be yrs if it is fated to be yrs.

it you have it

treasured it

before its gone again.



hope this year would be a happpy n stresfree year

and most impt an enjoyable year for all of us! =)

but would be an extra busy year for u at least till feb

i can foresee tt. =(

but train hard and get a gold medal for me n u ! hahaha

so yr efforts/sacrifice will not be wasted at least.

i knw u can.

yea at last is yr brithday.
so shall wish you happy sweet 22nd birthday wediah.
though we seldom meet.
but the friendship we knw is still there
and will continue to be!
cheers to our friendship! hehe =)
before the year ends.
and 2009 is coming in 2 days time!
wa this means we are one year older again! =(


over time i jus realise that
人总要失去后
才会董得去珍惜
可是有时后以今
是太迟！
又何必？

happy birthday joan! which was sat.
haha went dwn with you n chengyi to paya lebar for her 21st birthday party.
we were like quite late when we reached there.
and we cab there too from amk. haha
waited for the whole afternoon for u n cy lor.
yr tkd training end super late.
and u were super shag by then.
haha u still gt energy to rush there lo.!
but like wad u said u promised that you would go liao.
wa such a jiang yi qi person u are! =)
hmm i think i was quite pekche waiting for you all tt day. cus was like the whole afternoon, no news. then sudd when u 2 are ready was like 7pm. HAHA but then since it was over !
sorry for my pekcheness tt night. gals are emo sometime okay. haha :P


went for a prayer session with my family the next day. so i was super tired a bit.!
its a long day. there were a total of 3 rounds or praying.
and thank god we suvived thru.
but i must admit i was rather tired and was dozing off a bit.
hehe
but it was a once in yr life time experience. =)
if sumone were to give u 2亿3千万 (2.3 milion) ! haha
there's meaningful meaning behind it.
i think u would nv guess it to be this way.
2亿 meaning 遗忘 和 遗念。
yr left ear for 遗忘 for wad other ppl say to you which may hurt you.
and yr right ear for 遗念, think of the past good memories that are worthwhile to remember.
3千万 meaning 千万不要贪，千万不要生气 和 千万不要轮回。
i was impressed by the meaning behind it! =)
everyone should learnt it too.
so that you can be a happy person.
and if u laugh for a 10 mins period, you will not fall sick that often.
based on a scientific evidence.
try it =)

26th again!
happy 8th months anniversary monkey head dear!
i stick a postit pad on yr board. tt you wound't have found it until i was back home.
but then u saw it.! haha
wanted to make something but no time! haha
haha though this time is during our sch holidays,
but nothing special.
yr tkd matters again. sigh.
though had the intention to go sentosa or other special place on this day.
but.
well,
i understand.
there's still other days we can go. perhaps.
tt ends the day.
had supper with my sec sch frens.
and this yiwei lol mr. nice, fetch me , cl n luan for supper at boon lay nasi lemak!
well i think we are missing out,
we all should gather together more !
miss those times.

yr xmas present from me!

haha a white xmas tree with BIG presents!

haha
after sometime, at last we have our poly gers mini gathering.
AS usual we had our lunch and talking in COCOA at the international building.
this time round, there's yanni, fangzhi, lynette, zixuan and me! haah
we should org another meeting for our class. call more ppl to comE!
we ordered lots of food, but lucky got yanni's bf william to help us finish a bit more. =)
we are super FULL after that heavy late lunch steamboat. lols
after tt each one of us went to meet our bf at diff location.
and i went to JP to meet this lazy monkey head! :P
is been like 2 days since met him. haha
he have been busy with tkd or those sudden gathering lor. sobz!
haha but was rather happy tt day that u act forgo yr tkd training and meet me. =)
but the feeling is great when i met you, jus holding hands walking ard, is sumtime so sweet though is nth much at all.
and JP's new extension is quite amazing! there's lot of new shops and new resturants.
and there's the famous bugis dessert shop - "ji de chi" too! and 24hr NTUC extra.
the traffic in JP is kind of crazy too.
sometimes a hug from u
i feel very xin fu
dunknw why.
jus that special feeling =)
n sumtimes when i woke up
seeing u still sleeping like a monkey pig
is very funny!



and ya going to malacca soon on sun morning!
though wish tt u would go with us
but nvm
lets go sumwhere enjoy next time =)
miss ya!

think it's been quite a while since we have a nice long chat after the exams.

haha sounds like both of us are busy.

but perhaps cus of the phone conversation

it sumhow reassure me, gave me back the insecurity sumhow that i felt sudd.

was looking thru the "our story" book that you gave me.

after reading thru once again, it brought back lots of memories

is one of the most wonderful present that you had given me

and i had received so far.

those memories will always be right there again whenever you read those stuff.

and wanted to finish the book with my part now.

but the photos are still empty.

let's fill it up one day one by one when we are free. =)

was browsing thru the newspaper,
came across an interesting article. . .
it says paste red sticker to those items that does not matter after life, paste green sticker to those items that matters now and afterlife. After yr life, those items that you use money to buy become worthless, wad we should treasure the most is something more impt than tt.
Although this xmas season is about exchanging xmas gifts, but something more impt than tt was friendship, love, family, health. something cannot be bought over easily.

and i have 2 frens who having the same birthday today but different age.
1 is my good sec sch fren - chan chunglin. Happy 23rd birthday to you =)
and happy 20th birthday to Alicia too my ntu fren. =)

its gonna be a long entry. ignore it if u are other ppl viewing it. lols
cus is jus my feelings nth much!. so nth interesting to read abt. lols
hmm i dunknw why sudd i having these grey feelings, feeling moody, sad. . . is as though as a bottle full of emotions. is been long long time since i had this kind of weird feelings.

tt why i feel that is always so easy to get into a relationship, but when u are inside it, is SUPER hard to maintain it WELL, and those feelings that you might encounter is so so so unexplainable. is as though those feelings could control you so well that you have no interest in any other things. why being in a relationship sometimes is so complicating?

perhaps cus of the difference that i felt in this sem holiday compared to last sem holiday when we were first together. since we would meet almost every day, we can meet for doing anything, or jus meet doing nothing, jus relax together. and sometimes i would question myself, do guys really change after sometimes, from my good fren's side, is like is true. But i realise, guys do change from Veryveryvery committed to being lesser n lesser, and gals often become more passionate and grows more as days go. But is true, i agree, you can't expect his/her love for someone always the same/remain consistent thru out, we are human beings and not robots. but maybe is due to yr TKD upcoming ivp competition that made you so busy. and many of yr sudden events that made you busier than last time. and we meet less often than usual. Maybe is cus of the adaptation that i had, and if i dont meet u for sometime i feel lonley. perhaps. but i understand that there would be changes, life couldn't always be the same. i can't believe that i am sad over a non-living thing. Lols and sometimes such thinking have come across my mind like if i am in yr tkd team too, can train with u so n so. but tkd is just not me. Lols and of cus i wouldn't want you to go into the sparring ring going unprepared, and i understand that you would need to spend more time for training. so that u will become the best of the best. and get a gold for the IVP like wad u promised me you get for me when u said that to me during last sem recess wk. still remember? haha but from yr shoes i understand that there's many things u are responsible for, and i also do go out with my frens sometimes like wad you do too. but i dunknw why tt night i am super sad. and the watertap jus flowing non-stop, no matter how i try to close it, the watertap seem to be spoil. and it jus continue to flow like no other business. =( sometimes i jus hope that i would not be bothered by every single thing, maybe i would be happier. =)
do you knw sometimes i'm willing to forgo some gatherings or so on jus to meet you, or accomodate days that u are free n make it available first. hahaha.
i think i was being too emotional, but how can gers not being emotional at times. haha
soon tt late night, the bottle ful of emotions burst at last and i told u somehow. but i think after telling you, i did feel better. and i guess u would understand me better perhaps. sometimes a msg from you is to show that at least i am important to you, and you would want to tell me where u are so on n on. but diff ppl have diff thinking, so we have to adapt to each other's thinking. i hope after telling u some part of wad i feel, wont give u much pressure ok, cus tt's not wad my intention. jus be wad u are, cus tt's the person i love initially. but do not become a person less than wad you initially started off. haha u knw wad i mean ba.
and sometimes i guess i am a rather pessimistic person, and whenever i get into a serious relationship, i would be afraid that things might turn out the opp way. I would think for the worst sometimes, would afraid that sumone might back out.

因为太爱你
才会难过
因为难过
才会伤心
因为伤心
才会怕失去你！

But after msging you, felt much better.
and maybe i can better understand you from your angle
juz hope that we will still be like wad we used to be.
i understand that even though couples may meet everyday, it doesn't mean their relationship will get any better. i think is jus the mutual understanding and the special kind of feeling both of them have for each other.
though we have been together for only 7 mths.
i began to miss the times when you miss me if we din meet each other
the days that we meet everyday for anything
the days that you hold my hands every single time
the days that we stare at each other's eyes
the days that we kiss
it does not meant that we are not doing these, but perhaps less often. i guess
haha i think i am jus being emo for sometime.
so jus let me be.
but sometimes is jus so shen qi how love can be.
but still I love you monkey head dear =)

you can nv guess where is this secret place. . .

wad a rainy day when i woke up! sian
last nite we slept quite late.
was super lazy and i was trying hard to wake up in the early morning of sunday!
and drag you up too to fetch me back to home. before meeting my sec frens for paintball.
somehow i felt bad cus early in the morning drag u to fetch me and worse still it is drizzling.
but was still thankful for that day. i knew u were extremely Tired. =)
i tt the paintball day was cancel cus it was raining slightly heavier and we called, but the person told us over at katib was drizziling only. but when we reach there, it was raining heavy n NOT at all Drizziling. we could nt get our refund so we waited for the rain to be lighter before we start our paintball game.
haha we were divided into 2 groups, A-me,luan,yusen and tc. B - ming, liang and his gf, yuancai.
and yeah our team won, thanks to yusen and tc who ran and snatch the 2 mission. The game was soso la for me, cus it was really painful when the paintball get shot into you, it was like an injection! =( i gt 2 shots, 1 at the leg and the other at the mouth and i tasted the paintball! it was yuckyyy and bitter... and it was realy painful ! but the guys injuries were worse. cus thokchuan and liang 's injuries got blood! and thok chuan's injuries were the worse among ours! hope he recover soon but we still had a fun day. but dun think would go there for the 2nd time unless for a special reason. cus its really expensive

and on a happier note,
i had received an earlier xmas present from luan! my bestest buddy.=)
and guess wad i received a cute gigantic piglet
i nv guess that you would give me such a big soft toy. haha
here's a big pic.
thanks for this cute piglet =)
and this monkey pig is holding my cute piglet, but dunknw why he is so Stern! =( lol
see he always bully me! lol

the most tiring day - we had our garung guni day today on a sat summore! wad a sad day... if nt can go out. =( but nvm helping the charity is something more worthwhile to do !
we collected all types of things such as newspapers, clothings, spoil appliances, etc... from a total of 9 to 10 blocks! and this time is in bukit batok area. and we went to collect at block 142, which is my frens block.
after like 5 plus, at last we are done! and our legs are damn tired...
haha that area is filled with so much memories, for the past 5 years, i spend my sec sch days.
sudd i feel that i am old! nw at 23. lol
but too bad my sec sch was undergoing a brand new renovation, tt was sad cus the old memories tt we used to had in that old sch was demolished but stay in our heart 4 ever. =)
cheers to our 9 year + friendship, i hope we will still be as good when we grow old. =)
genuine friendship is hard to find sometime.!

after tt went to his hall to wash up. Lols
and then kahwee was there too, to do his website stuff!
and after like a few hrs at 10 plussss, it was almost done!
at night we went to play basket ball, i think tt night is the most tiring nite for me!
to play with this monkey pig, i'm sure to lose! but play for fun la. . .
and while waiting for you to bath or wad, look via the photos that we had took, and the interesting msn converstation that u saved.
Looking back, memories brought back too, began to miss those period of time.
and looking at the conversation we used to talk to each other when we are nt a couple yet, is jus so funny n aimei! somebody n someone, do u still remember? and alot lot of stuffs.. .lols
and juz a blink, i am yr gf now.! and after tt had a whole lot of fun during last sem holidays.so fast... should have made it longer! LOLS
that period of time with guessing, aimei-ing, talking crap is one of the most fun period perhaps.
somehow miss those happy time. =(

Wa time flies!
looking back last thur. is my last paper.
And now is HOLIDAY time. LOl
1 week juz past like tt. . .
let me see wad i had done.
haha playing basketball, playing badminton, jogging (which i had wanted to do so along time ago, and at last). LOL

and this fri going to botanic garden. having an interaction day with some kids with some special disabilities. and we are gonna teach the kids hw to make a Kelidoscope. haha is very interesting when we make ourselve on wed. just using 3 mirrors to form an equiateral triangle and there is it. and some decoration and yr kelidoscope is done. And i think i haven nv been to botanic garden. Lol

things to do during holidays:
the most impt (12 dec) Registration for next sem modules. But there's nt much interesting electives to take. SAVE ME plsss. So sian...
other than tt nth much, jus going to places that haven been there for quite some times
Pulau ubin, east coast, sentosa.
xmas shoppping, xmas celebration and dinner. Hahaha

happy holidays
and good luck to my sis for this fri exams! =)